Соседище, спасибо тебе за ололонг. Давно не пила ололонг, а этот еще такой вкусный, что желудок орет комплименты дурьим голосом.
Ну что, ждем завтрашнего дня. По всем прогнозам, новогоднее настроение должно появиться именно завтра.
копаем картофан или минутка флэшбэкаПеречитала одну вещь, с трудом откопала письмена (которые яндекс отказался находить).
Сейчас до меня дошло. Сразу и внезапно.
Я просто выставила себя какой-то рациональной сволочью. Кагбэ...не очень далеко от истины, хотя, конечно, текст я порядком причесала.
Директор-сан недавно сказал мне, что я произвожу неизгладимое первое впечатление, и на переваривание меня требуются едва ли не месяцы. Поэтому большинство пугается и уползает.
Нехуевый такой повод приобщаться к социуму только посредством Сети, а?
Sorry. I never intended to ignore you. But I ended up putting the email into a folder and quite forgot about it.
Нашла ошибки при вычитке. Вот за это действительно стыдно))
а шо я такого сказал?Okay, let's start from the very beginning.
I have an awful habit to disappear from the horizon in a moment, thinking that if people need me they will phone/see/text me. If not - it's the chance to spend my spare time without any live soul around me. In fact, communication takes too much energy from me, especially new faces and experiences (I mean that period of making a friend from a stranger). Being alone for a while is kind of the Earth hour for one person. Last year I was talking much to one guy who was tolerant to that sudden laziness/unwillingness to share some thoughts at the moment, so that I got used to this stuff
I feel a little helpless speaking foreign languages as I believe a language to be a weapon. If I could talk without looking back and finding words I would leave another implession, I suppose. Feeling helpless is, btw, a substructure of my fears and aims.
I only use words I heard once so it's still far from a perfect material to make of smth more similar to my image I've been creating for years. That is, of course, far from a creature that despises commas, tenses and never cares of minding its language and a proper use of slang.
Enough with the prologue (and that's what it was).
For what it worth. You see, I see (argh =_=) no point in repeating your text as I was nodding to the most part of it. So play it back mentally and add these statements.
I hope it sounds convincing enough and you believe it.
As for learning, I prefer it to predicting action of the people I'm speaking to. I see no use in knowledge if they can't produce ideas or can't help me to empathize. I like to end phrases for someone, learn comments, fandom stuff, diaries, listen to random people on the streets and so on. So I always have that absent/too cocentrated/senseless look. It's actually pretty hard to play the receiver and not to forget about facial expressions. I feel happy when I am able to walk in someone's shoes so that means I get that people, the whole society. In fact, people are beyound price as the endless material for learning. I like them [for breakfast =_=]
Some say I have a specific understanding of 'freedom'. I think that a jail term, deportation, boycott, death warrant, or being a held hostage or smth else never restrics someone's freedom. The same point with a family as the social institute. Creating a 'full-blooded' family may be impossible and there is absolutely nothing strange in being unmarried. You see, it may be considered as a normal attitude somewhere else, but still the philisophy of our regions looks pretty bizarre. Even here, in a city that is supposed to be more European than some, there are people (moreover, I keep meeting them while looking for actors\authors) that are fantastically stupid as they think they live in the completely another country. I have a special kind of hate for narrow people who think stereotypes. I hate stereotypes =_=
I keep watching and coming to conclusion that people can only be completely different if they've lived in different terms. That's all.
I pay way too much interest to pseudo-sciences, Lurcmore as the greates Internet's dump, fandom and politics. 2010-11 was a period of mass interest in socionics. Briefly: there are 16 sociotypes that are divided by Jung's dichotomies. People've got obsessed with the dual theories as it gives em the answer on the question how to meet people you really need. Plus that 'true love' stuff. The thought that people differ more levels than intro/extra, etic/logic, ir/rational, intuit/sensoric =_= It's just interesting to watch how people like to give labels to themselves.
I don't like the crowd, but sometimes I've got an enormously big and strange feeling when on the concert/stage. If it's a mass solidarity, I like it.
Still, I don't have any goal. I'm trying to connect my love of watching people with my profession and hobbies. So that I'm trying to learn as many languages, as possible and write mainstream humor trying to make it more individual at the same time. I like to look at everything what is going on like on a challenge, so everyone likes to blame me for my manner of speaking and behaviour as I look like I'm always ready to kick someone's ass immediately =_=
And more: if you're not satisfied with my answers, try leading questions then. Sometimes I'm amazingly blunt and I don't get as hints as obvious things.
Cheers.
...и получил в ответ вот этоWhenever it was that I messaged you on PPW, how long ago was that? Like 3 or 4 months ago or something? Anyway, at that point I guess you could say I was in a different point in my life and probably would have gladly gone onto have continued writing to you. But I just don't think that's where I am at the moment. Since then, I don't really know what it is specifically that changed. I guess it probably started when I signed up to OKCupid which is a dating website (I know, I know...). Actually, it's quite good there's lots of people on there who're really only looking for Pen pals as well. But I digress. Anyway, it's the usual story. Boy meets girl and so on. Since then, I really can't quite get that same excited feeling I would have done a few months ago.
Believe me when I say it's nothing that you said or anything like that but just I've done this quite a few times before, writing to people quite a lot and getting to know them really well and never seem to end up quite as satisfied with it as I was with the real life experiment of it, so to speak.
So, I'm sorry but I don't think I'm going to be able to this any more. And I'm sorry for taking a few weeks to tell you. Like I said, it slipped my mind until I got your other email yesterday.
Еще хотела постануть предыдущее письмо, где сей тип просто почесал все мои кинки. Но перечитала и поняла, что чесать отныне нечего)) Интересно девки пляшутъ, прошло всего ничего, а все так живенько поменялось)) И эта история казалась интереснее, чем сейчас.
Вообще, правильно сделала, что подняла, причем аккурат перед НГ. А то что-то потихоньку грызло. А ничего, просто не то)
Все отлично^^